Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Softening through Loss

One of my favorite authors is Oriah Mountain Dreamer.  In 1999 she published The Invitation and in 2003 it was The Call.  During that time I received her newsletters hoping to be able to attend one of her lectures.   I remember one particular newsletter in which she wrote in her beautiful prose how she needed to take a break from her lectures, she needed to rest and take care of her health.  She wrote she was getting married and told about how they had found a wonderful home in the country and were creating a life together.  It all seemed so perfect.  And, I read her newsletter like a child reads a fairy tale, imagining the loving mate, a home nestled in the country surrounded by trees and wild life, and a warm glow in the fireplace to snuggle by.   

Monday, February 14, 2011

To Write or Not to Write...

I was so surprised when I saw that my last blog was written in October.  I wondered for a moment how so much time had pasted so quickly.    I would like to think that I was busy and had no time to write.  But that would not be the truth.  The truth is that I avoid writing.  Why? Why do we so often avoid those things in life that gnaw at us from deepest level of our soul?  Several years ago I spoke with someone I had not seen in since childhood.  He said to me do you remember what we had talked about doing when we grew up.  I was fascinated by this question because I didn't remember having this conversation with him.  He continued to say all I ever talked about was that I wanted to write.  I didn't remember saying that to him but I do know that writing is something that has been and is always on my mind and something I have avoided.